LOVE must be an honest, balanced and happy emotion. –ANN
I guess not all can balance a complicated part of life which I believe, is, Love. Few of us can do magic. All the time we get hurt and rather choose to be weak than to fight. Human Nature. Nobody survives without love. It’s a fact. Cliché.
I was arguing with myself if I have given my friend the right advices and if I was saying the right words. It just came out. It was instant that my thoughts were like that and I can feel that I did say the right words. I might have said hurtful words but my friend has the right to know the truth. She's (too) sheltered and drowning with her love to a boy who doesn’t know how to commit and stand for his decision. She is blaming herself for allowing him to hurt the way his hurting her now. She is very confuse, too tired and wants to end this kind of relationship. What goes around comes back around. I understand the situation and blaming won’t help either of the two parties. They must accept, understand, forgive and move forward. Easy words but both of them should do it. That’s the only right way out. It can hurt them but it would be more painful to go on.
Defining my kind of love now, I can say that I’m good. I’m better with the love that I have for myself. I may be struggling to forgive myself and trust my decisions again but its worth to try. It is ok to be afraid and think of possibility of mistakes again, yet, you are stronger than before. I am still me but it is a new and a survivor me. Looking back with the love I had, it was an experience. I need to appreciate the good and the bad things that happened to me. I may thank the people who did what they did because they have been part of my life and taught me too. We all have choices. The problem would be making the right choices in the right time. We have different situations and personality. Not all advices works on everyone.
People might think that I’m alone. Having my son is perfect. He has been my magic. I might need a man but I think I can wait for him. Rushing things won’t work this time. I can be more patient. If I could make the right man for me, I could spend a lifetime making him. That would be fun.
I am over thinking my friend’s pain so that’s one reason why this entry is made. I don’t know. It just amazes me whenever my friends find me like a warrior fighting and stronger for love. Love itself is huge. It is bolder, unique, unpredictable and important. People should be much bigger than love. We should be the one conquering love. God made us with a fair intelligence. I am not saying that I am intelligent in all ways because I know my short comings. If you failed in a relationship or ended with a wrong person, that’s all right. We all go through that kind of experience. I bet no one only cried for the wrong person. Love really is powerful. It can deplete almost everything. The pain can kill us. But that’s what love is. Embrace everything that life gives us. We can value life if we have worst of worst and the best of best.
Anyway, the finest way to continue is to discuss the different love that I have and observe or see. A lot! Love to me is truly magical and exceptional. It can give us chills and can make us smile more. How would we know if people are very much in love? Very easy! People who look like floating in the air and thinks that heaven must have come down for a moment. Crazy. It can flip us upside down. We can enjoy everything about love. But ready or not, we have to feel the pain and drop more tears. Life isn’t stopping if hearts will get broken. Choices again. Decisions are made by choices. Think and rethink. Time is running but don’t define rush when it comes to love. If it is for you, then take it. Patience. Learn to love in a daily basis like living your life.
If there is anything better than sharing with others the best of what you have, it is sharing with others the best of who you are.