1/4/09
This will be random expressions, thoughts and happenings. New year was ok. Though I was late going to work and had to blame myself for being late. I was so damn sleepy. The neighborhood was so damn noisy. I was sick on Christmas and was alone on New Year's eve. Interesting! lol! But I don't mind because like I said to Labs Tashy, God loves me and I'm much happier about it. My family is safe and healthy, that's all that matters. So went to work (had no choice, have no choice). Our free food was so yum yum yum! Had desert, for the first time. HAHAHA! I went home after work because I really missed my son.
1/7/09
So I'm pissed off right now. I failed on my December scorecard because I had low scores in all the matrix and I totally can't accept 1.50 score! Damn it! I want to cry. It hurts. And this stupid idea of engaging with this annoying and hurtful emotions is not helping. It is irritating me and I don't like it. Better forget about it and keep moving forward which I know I'm good at.
First thing, JENNIFER GARNER just gave birth! Yahoo! Another girl for the Affleck's and Violet is a BIG sister now. The most wonderful family I've seen in Hollywood. Most people would say that they are siblings because they look the same. Super cute couple!
Going back to reality. I'm just pissed right now. And I don't want to explain further the reason why I'm pissed. I might not be able to finish this entry. haha! Whenever I get pissed I go crazy with music. Its like I need to listen to soul, love, pop and rnb songs. Big time! Because if not, I'll be drowned with it. I am actually aware of the emotions. Yes! I do but I don't want to acknowledge and to be overwhelmed about it. I don't want to get myself involve. Again. Not a good idea. Just let go and move forward because it would the best decision you could. The smartest help that you can get.
1/11/09
A very long week of work and hopeless stupidity. Good thing I did not waste even a single tear. If you fall in love, make sure the person won't make a fool of you. It just happened to me. Don't trust your instinct if you are very much aware that it's only happening because its all for fun. Players goin' to play! It was so real but sorry guys it was just a wast of time. You have a lot questions and you're afraid to know the answers. Answers that you already know that it would crash your heart out. Who among us are not scared of getting hurt? Emotions are so weak. Courage and determination is strong. I don't like to discuss and share detailed story about what really happened. It won't be necessary. To lessen the pain as well. I don't want to be reminded again and all over again. Those days would be enough. The pain can't kill me. I'm not that broken hearted but it did gave me a little of pain, a memory that I could never forget. It was also my fault that I allow myself to be involved to a relationship full of lies. Again, that was a joke. Everything was just a joke. So identify first if a person is joking or not. And be careful what you wish for.
Take care everyone!
xoxo
This will be random expressions, thoughts and happenings. New year was ok. Though I was late going to work and had to blame myself for being late. I was so damn sleepy. The neighborhood was so damn noisy. I was sick on Christmas and was alone on New Year's eve. Interesting! lol! But I don't mind because like I said to Labs Tashy, God loves me and I'm much happier about it. My family is safe and healthy, that's all that matters. So went to work (had no choice, have no choice). Our free food was so yum yum yum! Had desert, for the first time. HAHAHA! I went home after work because I really missed my son.
1/7/09
So I'm pissed off right now. I failed on my December scorecard because I had low scores in all the matrix and I totally can't accept 1.50 score! Damn it! I want to cry. It hurts. And this stupid idea of engaging with this annoying and hurtful emotions is not helping. It is irritating me and I don't like it. Better forget about it and keep moving forward which I know I'm good at.
First thing, JENNIFER GARNER just gave birth! Yahoo! Another girl for the Affleck's and Violet is a BIG sister now. The most wonderful family I've seen in Hollywood. Most people would say that they are siblings because they look the same. Super cute couple!
Going back to reality. I'm just pissed right now. And I don't want to explain further the reason why I'm pissed. I might not be able to finish this entry. haha! Whenever I get pissed I go crazy with music. Its like I need to listen to soul, love, pop and rnb songs. Big time! Because if not, I'll be drowned with it. I am actually aware of the emotions. Yes! I do but I don't want to acknowledge and to be overwhelmed about it. I don't want to get myself involve. Again. Not a good idea. Just let go and move forward because it would the best decision you could. The smartest help that you can get.
1/11/09
A very long week of work and hopeless stupidity. Good thing I did not waste even a single tear. If you fall in love, make sure the person won't make a fool of you. It just happened to me. Don't trust your instinct if you are very much aware that it's only happening because its all for fun. Players goin' to play! It was so real but sorry guys it was just a wast of time. You have a lot questions and you're afraid to know the answers. Answers that you already know that it would crash your heart out. Who among us are not scared of getting hurt? Emotions are so weak. Courage and determination is strong. I don't like to discuss and share detailed story about what really happened. It won't be necessary. To lessen the pain as well. I don't want to be reminded again and all over again. Those days would be enough. The pain can't kill me. I'm not that broken hearted but it did gave me a little of pain, a memory that I could never forget. It was also my fault that I allow myself to be involved to a relationship full of lies. Again, that was a joke. Everything was just a joke. So identify first if a person is joking or not. And be careful what you wish for.
Take care everyone!
xoxo