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Was Pissed Off And Still Am Today

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Just came from work. Not literally I did work but went to the office to verify my schedule. So two days ago my supervisor called me that I need to report back to work today. Did I panic!? YES! Absolutely pissed off too! Big Time! Because I thought that I'll be working back on March 3 but hey he really called me and greets my morning with a very interesting surprise. I was really pissed off. I went crazy and I’m totally not in the mood going back to work. I thought that I’ll be back on the 28th since my sister’s wedding will be on that day but guess what my supervisor told me that my leave is not until Feb 28. Unbelievable! This is not so happening. I want to cry. But I need to work. So unfortunately, my Manager and the schedule facilitator told me to work on the 24th and that’s next week. As I walked to the floor (yeah of course I’m walking through or in the ground, floor is our working area and that’s how we call it), the environment is still the same. IT still has a lot of papers on the stations and on the ceiling. Same old faces and still miss the headset and the avaya. Nothings change. I haven’t asked any updates about new policies or process/procedures in answering calls. They usually make changes either the scripts that we use answering calls and in our system. There’s only one way to find out that will be on Tuesday.

I have to go now. Someone’s calling Mommy… My son…

Later…

xoxo,
ANN

FREE BRITNEY!!! FREE BRITNEY!!! FREE BRITNEY!!!

It's Been Forever... Forever

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Hey! It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours Since you went away! HAHA! Yeah, it’s a McKnight's 6,8,12. Soooo! I've been away for awhile and I'm sorry. HAHA! Who am I saying Sorry for?! FREAK. Anyway. I'm still on leave, until now. But I'll back to work by next month. And I'm thinking twice of not going back because I want a different work. Here I go again. I'm fine though. The stitches are healed, way healed and sometimes making me feel the itch! lol I've never gone out the house technically. No going to malls, eating in a restaurant or watching movies. I don't have the money and the time. For now. I'm not working for a whole month.

The year has been verrrry bittersweet and stressful for everyone. My mom is still struggling and always been pissed with her. With her behavior and the way she treats mom. Unbelievable! I can hate her but I can't say I can hate her forever. All she has to do is to admit that she's wrong, change, listen and forgive herself. It may be hard but she has to do it. I wish I could fix everything for her. She has to what she needs to do. She will soon start a new life. And I hope she will realize that everything here is changing. She has to change too. Be a better her. It just so happen that she's my sister. It is pretty intense now and the fight is so strong. I’m between not trap but it’s hard to talk when no one wants to listen. But lets give them break, a room to breath soon they will make up and hopefully they’ll go back to what they are suppose to be; a parent and a daughter.

For myself, my brain is doing a lot of process. My head is overloaded with almost everything that I could possibly think. I want to do a lot of things. I have 2 toddlers at home that I have to attend to. My son is one and his growing up so fast. I love him and no matter what he does to mommy, no matter how pissed off mommy gets, he’s still more than everything to me. Right now, I’m trying to brainstorm some compositions. I’m writing again! For several reasons, I am writing a few things. I get to lazy to even post an entry here. HEHEHE. But I’m moving forward. I want to do more things while I’m not at work. I’m not inspired. Because they say that you can only write or compose if you’re inspired. But I want to write, that’s it. Beat it! It’s starting NOW! Engine is pumping! HAHA! I’m a hopeful, a dreamer and nobody is stopping me now! I got someone on my mind who can (maybe) help to complete this thing. Pray pray pray!

So for the Entertainment world, just want to mention. Britney just finished shooting If U Seek Amy video, her 3rd single from her Circus Album. The tour will kick off in 2 weeks and counting… And her boys will be touring with her. Is K-Fed going too?! NOOO! Please. She’s doing fine and enjoying the rehearsals. Loooooveee Her! And yeah, the Rihanna and Chris Brown whirlwind is extremely the talk of the world now! EVERYBODY has a lot of questions! EVERYBODY wants to know WHY and What Happened! But if RhiRhi is healing and fine, then I think that all matters. Her heart that has been wounded and even if it leaves a scar because of what Chris did let it be. It HAPPENED. What is important is NOW. People that surround them can STILL do something with the whole situation. It is still there problem; we can let them fix it. I love them. Just let it go…

WOAAA! I’m think I’m done here. It’s getting late and the Jonas Brothers is making a lot of noise in my ears now. HAHA! I thought I won’t like them but there cool. AWKWARD Nick!

Have a lovely evening everyone!

xoxo,
ANN

Pick-Up Story of Today and Beyond LOL

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Here I am listening to Kelly Clarkson's new single, My Life Would Suck Without You. She's back! The first American Idol is now back with her new album and she's a threat with B's Circus. But let's see, it is a close fight now. I haven't seen the video but I don't think there's a music video already. It's her first track and the lyrics is a bit familiar. And my internet is not connecting! SUCKS! DAMN! Want some iced tea? HAHA! I'm dancing with If U Seek Amy by B! Very controversial song and people are crazy begging that to be her 3rd single. YEAH! B and her biatches posted/uploaded a teaser exclusive photos during her Tour rehearsals at Center Staging. I will upload some of it... Later! My internet won't connect! AT ALL! TIME out! I will be out for awhile. I need to see my doctor for a follow-up check up for my stitches! hehe... TO BE CONTINUED... And going back... So my internet connection is finally fix! Thank God. I will upload Britney's Teaser Exclusive Rehearsal Pictures and here are B's pics...



Is she HOT or just so damn H.O.T!? haha! She is working her Ass to be number one again and to be a much much much better person. As a Mom, Daugther and a Sister, she's incredibly changed, mature, determined and amazing! I love her like forever. She is the most controversial celebrity in Hollywood and everybody wants a piece of her. Annoying people are crazy about her. I respect her as an artist, as a person, as an individual, as a MOM, a daugther and a sister. She is still human. Most people must remember that. We all make mistakes. We live and we learn. Just because she's popular, she can't stroll around the park with her kids. She should have security around her to protect her from 30-50 stupid paparazzi who are so disgusting and crazy taking pictures and videos of her. She just can't have piece or a moment of her life alone outside her home. So people call her a prisoner on her own house. Maybe you know the reason why. And its not her fault if she is popular. The society made her popular and it doesn't mean that you own her. Nobody owns her. Too much about B. I sound pissed right? hahaha...

Let's talk about the Bday Boy Nickolas! haha! He just turned 29 last 01.28.09. He had 3 Bday parties! Shocks! I can't even have one party. I have his first celebration at the Keyclub last 01.26.09. Here are some pictures...




I don't want to discuss what happened after because I was not worried that Nickolas was drunk but I'm concern about AJ. I hope he got home safe. I love him. But I love Nickolas more. But I think I'm more interested to know what Aaron did in The KeyClub. HAHAHA! Whatever. The Boys are working for there next album and Never Gone Tour that will start on March (I think), same as with Britney. *smiles*

REALITY:
My son is still my number priority even if he makes Mommy mad whenever his not following my rules. His just a kid. I looses my temper more often now because I'm a bit tired or I get tired easily. Just had my surgery remember? lol Yeah I know, I can still cope up. No matter how angry Mommy is or gets, I still love my Boy so much. He is more than everything...

Have a good night everyone!

Sleep tight, dream of bugs bite tonight!

xoxo

Diagnosis: Follicular Adenoma, Right Lobe Thyroid Gland

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The follicular adenoma of the thyroid is a common benign tumor of the thyroid gland. They present as a solitary nodule, usually as a painless mass. It may be found during a routine physical examination. A physician may order a nuclear medicine thyroid scan which measures uptake of radionucleotide labelled iodine. Adenomas are usually cold nodules since they usually take up less radioactive iodine than normal surrounding gland. On the other hand, about 10% of cold nodules are malignant. Conversely, hot nodules are only rarely malignant.
Once the nodule is identified, additional diagnostic techniques including an ultrasound examination which may identify a cystic component may be helpful. A pathologist may perform a fine needle aspiration biopsy to obtain diagnostic cytology. In the case of a follicular adenoma, a diagnosis of follicular neoplasm-adenoma versus carcinoma, may be rendered. On cytologic examination, a pathologist cannot make the distinction between an adenoma versus a carcinoma. An excisional biopsy must be obtained. The pathologist must carefully embed the entire capsule in order to exclude capsular invasion, the hallmark of malignancy.

I just googled it and I don't want to upload the photos because its so gross. I had my right lobe thyroid removed last thursday. I got out from the hospital last saturday. WHEW! I was so busy the past few weeks. Work is okay. I am on leave for a month. Nothing important happened for the last weeks. SO far, I'm still hurting about what happened not with my surgery but my feelings (ewww). Even though you know that the person won't give a damn attention or care for you, still you can't hate that person. But I know that I don't have to wait because the person is not definitely not for me. So be it! Moving forward... From now on, I will stop thinking about that person AND his not suppose to be part of my blog! ERRRR! haha! But nevermind. It's Chinese New Year by the way! Kung Hei Fat Choi Chinese People! AND to my ultimate super cutee GUY Chris Tiu (and to his family)! haha! It's YEAR of the OX!!! My year! weeee!

AND yeap Barack Obama is now President Barack Obama! Congratulations America! YES he can make a difference! He will...

Later everyone! xoxo

LETTING GO AND BE FREE

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REPEAT AFTER ME!!!

SHOUT! CRY! AND BE FREE AGAIN. LET GO! LET GO! LET GO! LET GO!

THE PERSON IS NOT WORTH IT. SO DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME BECAUSE YOU ARE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PERSON! STAY SWEET AND HAPPY! YOUR BFF'S LOVES YOU SO DEARLY!

FREE! FREE! FREE! IGNORE! IGNORE! IGNORE!

A VERY SPECIAL LOVE FOR YOU IS COMING SOON!!! PATIENTLY WAIT FOR IT AND MOVE FORWARD...

xoxo

I'M STILL ALIVE! hahaha

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BACK! So I'm at work right now and its 1:15PM before logging out. Had several long calls that I really had great time resolving their issues. The shift is not bad at all though weather is pretty cold. All of my team mates are wearing jackets but I'm not. It is cold but I don't really think about it. You can already feel the cold and you are freezing. I just don't get crazy with cold wind and rainy days. I will be dead if I live in a place with a temperature of negative 10 degrees. THAT IS DEADLY FREEZING! Going on, have few updates about my life (somebody cares to be interested). hahaha! I still have nightmares and I think its understandable. Take one step at a time. I'm not rushing to let go but I'm doing it slow. It won't kill me even if I see the person everyday. At least, I'm convincing myself that the person is not for me. But let's wait and see. Music is really motivating me now, thank you. My BFF of course! I so love them. Empowering women! They are friends that spend more time with you, treats you like a sister a family, and most importantly they tell you what is true and will help you no matter what. BIG TIME! I love them so damn much! They love my son so dearly. So sweet! Hey! It's 30mins to go before logging out! hahaha! So Ces just told me that we will go to HongKong Disneyland but how can I afford going there? I can't even save and struggling paying my debts and bills. WOW! I almost forgot, I still don't have the measurements for my gown for my sister's wedding! DEAD! I'd better do it today or else....! The maid of honor won't have a gown on 2/28/09! hahaha! Nah, that's not gonna happen. I'm sure my gown would be better. If you have seen Lucy Torres-Gomez black gown or Britney Spears dress the eve of her Bro's wedding and New Year's eve, you'd probably know the design of my dress. It won't be a gown. HAHAHA! Boss just blasted our mini team(s) and I belong with Raine plus Niño. Not bad. AND YEAH! American Idol premiered last night and it Phoenix Arizona was the first city. It was a blast! I really enjoyed the show. It really entertained me even if I was alone at home. I just got a little iritated with that Bitchy blonde who Unfortunately got the golden ticket, insulted Kara and kissed RYAN! Damn her! Such a bitch! HAHA! Well, let's see if she can make it. The game is not yet on! Whatever. I'm hungry. It's payday today! Hurray! Will pay bills and debts. Exciting! LOL! I just remembered Britney's tour. Wade and Amanda Robson was pulled out. Sad. But Jamie King is taking over which is lovely. Another addition is JaQuel Knight has joined the tour team as contributing choreographer! Why am I so excited, you ask? Because JaQuel choregraphed Beyonce's 'Single Ladies' music video! Talk about genius moves. STOP!Have to go now! Got a bitchy last call! grrr!

xoxo

... Just Another Diary

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1/4/09
This will be random expressions, thoughts and happenings. New year was ok. Though I was late going to work and had to blame myself for being late. I was so damn sleepy. The neighborhood was so damn noisy. I was sick on Christmas and was alone on New Year's eve. Interesting! lol! But I don't mind because like I said to Labs Tashy, God loves me and I'm much happier about it. My family is safe and healthy, that's all that matters. So went to work (had no choice, have no choice). Our free food was so yum yum yum! Had desert, for the first time. HAHAHA! I went home after work because I really missed my son.

1/7/09
So I'm pissed off right now. I failed on my December scorecard because I had low scores in all the matrix and I totally can't accept 1.50 score! Damn it! I want to cry. It hurts. And this stupid idea of engaging with this annoying and hurtful emotions is not helping. It is irritating me and I don't like it. Better forget about it and keep moving forward which I know I'm good at.
First thing, JENNIFER GARNER just gave birth! Yahoo! Another girl for the Affleck's and Violet is a BIG sister now. The most wonderful family I've seen in Hollywood. Most people would say that they are siblings because they look the same. Super cute couple!
Going back to reality. I'm just pissed right now. And I don't want to explain further the reason why I'm pissed. I might not be able to finish this entry. haha! Whenever I get pissed I go crazy with music. Its like I need to listen to soul, love, pop and rnb songs. Big time! Because if not, I'll be drowned with it. I am actually aware of the emotions. Yes! I do but I don't want to acknowledge and to be overwhelmed about it. I don't want to get myself involve. Again. Not a good idea. Just let go and move forward because it would the best decision you could. The smartest help that you can get.

1/11/09
A very long week of work and hopeless stupidity. Good thing I did not waste even a single tear. If you fall in love, make sure the person won't make a fool of you. It just happened to me. Don't trust your instinct if you are very much aware that it's only happening because its all for fun. Players goin' to play! It was so real but sorry guys it was just a wast of time. You have a lot questions and you're afraid to know the answers. Answers that you already know that it would crash your heart out. Who among us are not scared of getting hurt? Emotions are so weak. Courage and determination is strong. I don't like to discuss and share detailed story about what really happened. It won't be necessary. To lessen the pain as well. I don't want to be reminded again and all over again. Those days would be enough. The pain can't kill me. I'm not that broken hearted but it did gave me a little of pain, a memory that I could never forget. It was also my fault that I allow myself to be involved to a relationship full of lies. Again, that was a joke. Everything was just a joke. So identify first if a person is joking or not. And be careful what you wish for.

Take care everyone!

xoxo

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