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Expressions of Whirlwind Emotions, Thoughts, Life and Everything Possible and Impossible.


Good Evening everyone! Just got home. This will be quick because I have to be in bed in less than 10 minutes. My son is sick. *tears.. I will be posting something that I wrote last night during work. I was bored so I just kept on typing in my sticky notes to entertain myself. lol! Here it is:

"Hey everyone! It's 5:38AM 11.10.08 here in the center. I just ended a call, customer was asking for temporary credit to increase there account spending limit to prevent service interruption. You would probably know my job. So, I'm seated away from my BFF's & I miss them! *tears! I'm in a single station & I can't see my Senior Guy! HAHAHA! He's the cutest! Charming & so baby face. Still waiting for a call now. Good thing that they did not transfer me to CBI which is for sure receiving a lot of calls. We had a system issue for like 2 hours. I was late! hahaha! 58mins late by the way. Yeah, I know its not a good behavior to be late. BUT I live hundred miles away from work! It would be too expensive if I will rent a house. I would rather travel, sleep in my own bed, sit in our sofa & bathe in our bathroom. There's no place like home! Two things I hate in the house: IT'S TOO FREAKING HOT! BIG TIME! Another thing is, I hate it when I get home & see ANTS feasting the foods & stuffs. Its like those little itchy creatures is going to carry the house & throw it in the garbage can or worst eat the house! I get pissed right away. It will ruin my morning & it causes me headache. I'm sleepwalking after a two hours sleep. Whatever. I just ended a call again. hehe! Mr. BRACY was a flirt. It was good call. I was explaining to him that his phone is not suspended & his not over his account spending limit & his balance is current. Good thing that he has simply everything which is the unlimited plan because if he has a regular plan he will have a problem managing his usages. WAY TO GO! I don't have much sales right now. I'm tired. I still have headache. Like I said, I didn't get enough sleep. I had to rearrange my bed & the closet. I have to cover the windows by the closet. It will help to minimize the heat from the sun going inside the room. I don't have an air conditioned room people. I have to save to buy one. I will, someday. When my father comes home. He has to do it. I don't think my brother wants to do it. He will ask for money! He will be outnumbered in the calender three years from now & still his jobless. He is not really a headache but his getting old. A man already. He is looking a job but haven't landed to his dream job? His a clown. By the way his my personal cheft! Not a good cook but his cooking my meals. SWEET!"

nightie night! xoxo

ANN

While my son & my niece are asleep, I'm taking a little time to post an entry in my blog. Shall I say I'm getting addicted with this exciting hobby called 'blog'? hahaha! Its fun! I find it very relaxing. I can just post anything I wanna say. Like I said, I love sharing thoughts & memories. Going back. I'm feeling better now. But still have cough. Maybe I'm ready to go back to work tomorrow night. Let's see! I really don't feel like going back to work. I'm tired. But I have to work, have to buy my son's needs & for myself as well. Most importantly, I have to pay BILLS! Bills & Debts! It's been a problem. But I think we are responsible. We are the one making those bills & debts. We are using it anyway. We know the difference between good & bad. I don't have to discuss further about it.

I'm hoping that it will not rain tomorrow but according to news Cebu is signal #1. So I will stop hoping. What am I going to write? Where will I start? Hmmm... Yeah! The election is still fresh & people are still talking about it. And I know that they will talk about it & remember the election forever. It's history! It really is.

TWIST! I just added Taylor Swift in my MySpace top friends list. I'm not really a fan but damn she is really beautiful! I so love her hair! Love Story is a nice song, so country & i like it! Her eyes are so beautiful. She's fun of wearing those booootttsss! SO cute! Someone broke her heart but she's only 18. Long way to go girl. AND also, I want to mention that Vanessa Anne Hudgens has the most amazing hair & smile! I love her fashion! She is such a super talented girl & young as well. Rich & famous but still proud to know that she has a Filipino blood.

Here are some my fave photos of Taylor & Nessa:




AND yeah! MR. Ryan Seacrest broke the news on 102.7 KIIS-FM Wednesday as much excitement for Madonna's Sticky and Sweet concert tour grows in Southern California. 'BIG News' He said: "In an unprecedented concert event, music superstars Madonna, Justin Timberlake and Britney Spears will appear on stage together in Los Angeles at Dodger Stadium Thursday night. If Justin and Britney end up on that stage with her...I don't know if I've ever seen anything quite like that before." RUMORS! I don't think that's possible. But then again, let's wait. I can't mention all the updates about Britney. You can visit http://breatheheavy.com or http://britneyspears.com. These sites are updated real time. Happy to be one of the viewers of those sites.

REALITY: Tonight will be my last night with my son. Have to go back to work again tomorrow night. DARN! Breaks my heart to leave him again. OUCHY. I need to work. I know he'll be fine. My mother is blaming me with the behavoir that his showing when I'm home. I'm giving my son 110% love & care. I can't take my hands & eyes off of him. He is too precious. I must admit that I discipline him in the way I know. He is spoiled when I'm around but I do know how to talk to him if there's a need to discipline him. Kids will always be kids. Parents' patience must be over the hedge. Patience & understanding. Kids can hurt themselves & that's what I'm afraid of. But we have to let our children to be kids. We have to give them the time to be kids because in time they will be teens, adults & grown ups. They will grow & learn. Like us parents! We have to grow together with them. I want to grow together with my son. We are teaching each others valuable lessons. I think my son & I will be much more better & stronger if we have each other. His my blessing. *smile

Have to go to bed now. My eyes are falling. Take care everyone!
God Speed!

xoxo






Barack Obama has dedicated his life to public service as a community organizer, civil rights attorney, and leader in the Illinois state Senate. Obama now continues his fight for working families following his recent election to the United States Senate. Sworn into office January 4, 2005, Senator Obama is focused on promoting economic growth and bringing good paying jobs to Illinois. Obama serves on the important Environment and Public Works Committee, which oversees legislation and funding for the environment and public works projects throughout the country, including the national transportation bill. He also serves on the Veterans’ Affairs Committee where he is focused on investigating the disability pay discrepancies that have left thousands of Illinois veterans without the benefits they earned. Senator Obama also serves on the Foreign Relations Committee. During his seven years in the Illinois state Senate, Obama worked with both Democrats and Republicans to help working families get ahead by creating programs like the state Earned Income Tax Credit, which in three years provided over $100 million in tax cuts to families across the state. Obama also pushed through an expansion of early childhood education, and after a number of inmates on death row were found innocent, Senator Obama enlisted the support of law enforcement officials to draft legislation requiring the videotaping of interrogations and confessions in all capital cases. Obama is especially proud of being a husband and father of two daughters, Malia, 8 and Sasha, 4. Obama and his wife, Michelle, married in 1992 and live on Chicago ’s South Side where they attend Trinity United Church of Christ. Barack Obama was born on August 4th, 1961, in Hawaii to Barack Obama, Sr. and Ann Dunham. Obama graduated from Columbia University in 1983, and moved to Chicago in 1985 to work for a church-based group seeking to improve living conditions in poor neighborhoods plagued with crime and high unemployment. In 1991, Obama graduated from Harvard Law School where he was the first African American president of the Harvard Law Review.



Obama to be first African-American president

After defeating John McCain in Virginia, Ohio, Iowa and Florida and leading in Electoral College votes, Barack Obama made history Tuesday night by becoming the nation's first black president.

"Change has come to America," he told an estimated 125,000 supporters who cheered him on in Grant Park in Chicago, his hometown. "The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. We may not get there in one year or even one term, but America -- I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there. I promise you -- we as a people will get there."

The 47-year-old senator from Illinois (who is married to wife of 16 years, Michelle, and has two daughters, Malia, 10, and Sasha, 7) swept through traditionally Democratic states in the East and Midwest, as well as Virginia, Ohio, Iowa and Florida. (Obama's victory in Ohio was particularly telling: No Republican has ever won the presidency without it.) He also lead in Electoral College votes.

"The American people have spoken, and spoken clearly," a disappointed McCain told supporters as they booed in Arizona.

Along with his running mate Joe Biden, Obama will be sworn in as the 44th U.S. president on Jan. 20, 2009.


Obama makes history; turns to sobering challenges


WASHINGTON – His name etched in history as America's first black president, Barack Obama turned from the jubilation of victory to the sobering challenge of leading a nation worried about economic crisis, two unfinished wars and global uncertainty.

"The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep," Obama cautioned.

Young and charismatic but with little experience on the national level, Obama smashed through racial barriers and easily defeated Republican John McCain to become the first African-American destined to sit in the Oval Office, America's 44th president. He was the first Democrat to receive more than 50 percent of the popular vote since Jimmy Carter in 1976.

"It's been a long time coming, but tonight, because of what we did on this date in this election at this defining moment, change has come to America," Obama told a victory rally of 125,000 people jammed into Chicago's Grant Park.

Obama scored an Electoral College landslide that redrew America's political map. He won states that reliably voted Republican in presidential elections, like Indiana and Virginia, which hadn't supported the Democratic candidate in 44 years. Ohio and Florida, key to Bush's twin victories, also went for Obama, as did Pennsylvania, which McCain had deemed crucial for his election hopes.

With just 76 days until the inauguration, Obama is expected to move quickly to begin assembling a White House staff and selecting Cabinet nominees.

Campaign officials said Illinois Rep. Rahm Emanuel was the front-runner to be Obama's chief of staff. The advisers spoke on a condition of anonymity because the announcement had not yet been made.

Democrats expanded their majority in both houses of Congress. In the Senate, Democrats ousted Republicans Elizabeth Dole of North Carolina and John Sununu of New Hampshire and captured seats held by retiring GOP senators in Virginia, New Mexico and Colorado. Still, the GOP blocked a complete rout, holding the Kentucky seat of Senate Minority Leader Mitch McConnell and a Mississippi seat once held by Trent Lott — two top Democratic targets.

In the House, with fewer than a dozen races still undecided, Democrats captured Republican-held seats in the Northeast, South and West and were on a path to pick up as many as 20 seats.

When Obama and running mate Joe Biden take their oath of office on Jan. 20, Democrats will control both the White House and Congress for the first time since 1994.

"It is not a mandate for a party or ideology but a mandate for change," said Senate Majority Leader Harry Reid of Nevada.

House Speaker Nancy Pelosi of California said: "Tonight the American people have called for a new direction. They have called for change in America."

After the longest and costliest campaign in U.S. history, Obama was propelled to victory by voters dismayed by eight years of George W. Bush's presidency and deeply anxious about rising unemployment and home foreclosures and a battered stock market that has erased trillions of dollars of savings for Americans.

Six in 10 voters picked the economy as the most important issue facing the nation in an Associated Press exit poll. None of the other top issues — energy, Iraq, terrorism and health care — was selected by more than one in 10. Obama has promised to cut taxes for most Americans, get the United States out of Iraq and expand health care, including mandatory coverage for children.

Obama acknowledged that repairing the economy and dealing with problems at home and overseas will not happen quickly. "We may not get there in one year or even in one term," he said. "But, America, I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there. I promise you, we as a people will get there."

McCain conceded defeat shortly after 11 p.m. EST, telling supporters outside the Arizona Biltmore Hotel, "The American people have spoken, and they have spoken clearly."

"This is an historic election, and I recognize the special significance it has for African-Americans and the special pride that must be theirs tonight," McCain said. "These are difficult times for our country. And I pledge to him tonight to do all in my power to help him lead us through the many challenges we face."

Obama faces a staggering list of problems, and he mentioned some of them in his victory speech. "Even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime — two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century." He spoke of parents who worry about paying their mortgages and medical bills.

"There will be setbacks and false starts," Obama said. "There are many who won't agree with every decision or policy I make as president. And we know the government can't solve every problem."

The son of a Kenyan father and a white mother from Kansas, the 47-year-old Obama has had a startlingly rapid rise, from lawyer and community organizer to state legislator and U.S. senator, now just four years into his first term. He is the first senator elected to the White House since John F. Kennedy in 1960.

Bush called Obama with congratulations at 11:12 p.m. EST. "I promise to make this a smooth transition," the president said. "You are about to go on one of the great journeys of life. Congratulations and go enjoy yourself." He invited Obama and his family to visit the White House soon.

Bush planned to make a statement about the election at midmorning Wednesday in the Rose Garden.

With most U.S. precincts tallied, the popular vote was 51.9 percent for Obama and 46.8 percent for McCain. But the count in the Electoral College was lopsided in Obama's favor over McCain — 349 to 147 as of early Wednesday, with three states still to be decided. Those were North Carolina, Georgia and Missouri.

Obama won California, Colorado, Connecticut, Delaware, the District of Columbia, Florida, Hawaii, Illinois, Indiana, Iowa, Maine, Maryland, Massachusetts, Michigan, Minnesota, Nevada, New Hampshire, New Jersey, New Mexico, New York, Ohio, Oregon, Pennsylvania, Rhode Island, Virginia, Vermont, Washington and Wisconsin.

McCain had Alabama, Arizona, Arkansas, Idaho, Kansas, Kentucky, Louisiana, Mississippi, Montana, Nebraska, North Dakota, Oklahoma, South Carolina, South Dakota, Tennessee, Texas, Utah, West Virginia and Wyoming. He also won at least 3 of Nebraska's five electoral votes, with the other two in doubt.

Almost six in 10 women supported Obama nationwide, while men leaned his way by a narrow margin, according to interviews with voters. Just over half of whites supported McCain, giving him a slim advantage in a group that Bush carried overwhelmingly in 2004.

The results of the AP survey were based on a preliminary partial sample of nearly 10,000 voters in Election Day polls and in telephone interviews over the past week for early voters.

In terms of turnout, America voted in record numbers. It looks like 136.6 million Americans will have voted for president this election, based on 88 percent of the country's precincts tallied and projections for absentee ballots, said Michael McDonald of George Mason University. Using his methods, that would give 2008 a 64.1 percent turnout rate.

"That would be the highest turnout rate that we've seen since 1908," which was 65.7 percent, McDonald said early Wednesday.




Barack Obama: "Change Has Come to America"

Acceptance speech of President-Elect Barack Obama:

If there is anyone out there who still doubts that America is a place where all things are possible; who still wonders if the dream of our founders is alive in our time; who still questions the power of our democracy, tonight is your answer.

It's the answer told by lines that stretched around schools and churches in numbers this nation has never seen; by people who waited three hours and four hours, many for the very first time in their lives, because they believed that this time must be different; that their voice could be that difference.

It's the answer spoken by young and old, rich and poor, Democrat and Republican, black, white, Latino, Asian, Native American, gay, straight, disabled and not disabled - Americans who sent a message to the world that we have never been a collection of Red States and Blue States: we are, and always will be, the United States of America.

It's the answer that led those who have been told for so long by so many to be cynical, and fearful, and doubtful of what we can achieve to put their hands on the arc of history and bend it once more toward the hope of a better day.

It's been a long time coming, but tonight, because of what we did on this day, in this election, at this defining moment, change has come to America.

I just received a very gracious call from Senator McCain. He fought long and hard in this campaign, and he's fought even longer and harder for the country he loves. He has endured sacrifices for America that most of us cannot begin to imagine, and we are better off for the service rendered by this brave and selfless leader. I congratulate him and Governor Palin for all they have achieved, and I look forward to working with them to renew this nation's promise in the months ahead.

I want to thank my partner in this journey, a man who campaigned from his heart and spoke for the men and women he grew up with on the streets of Scranton and rode with on that train home to Delaware, the Vice President-elect of the United States, Joe Biden.

I would not be standing here tonight without the unyielding support of my best friend for the last sixteen years, the rock of our family and the love of my life, our nation's next First Lady, Michelle Obama. Sasha and Malia, I love you both so much, and you have earned the new puppy that's coming with us to the White House. And while she's no longer with us, I know my grandmother is watching, along with the family that made me who I am. I miss them tonight, and know that my debt to them is beyond measure.

To my campaign manager David Plouffe, my chief strategist David Axelrod, and the best campaign team ever assembled in the history of politics - you made this happen, and I am forever grateful for what you've sacrificed to get it done.

But above all, I will never forget who this victory truly belongs to - it belongs to you.

I was never the likeliest candidate for this office. We didn't start with much money or many endorsements. Our campaign was not hatched in the halls of Washington - it began in the backyards of Des Moines and the living rooms of Concord and the front porches of Charleston.

It was built by working men and women who dug into what little savings they had to give five dollars and ten dollars and twenty dollars to this cause. It grew strength from the young people who rejected the myth of their generation's apathy; who left their homes and their families for jobs that offered little pay and less sleep; from the not-so-young people who braved the bitter cold and scorching heat to knock on the doors of perfect strangers; from the millions of Americans who volunteered, and organized, and proved that more than two centuries later, a government of the people, by the people and for the people has not perished from this Earth. This is your victory.

I know you didn't do this just to win an election and I know you didn't do it for me. You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead. For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime - two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century. Even as we stand here tonight, we know there are brave Americans waking up in the deserts of Iraq and the mountains of Afghanistan to risk their lives for us. There are mothers and fathers who will lie awake after their children fall asleep and wonder how they'll make the mortgage, or pay their doctor's bills, or save enough for college. There is new energy to harness and new jobs to be created; new schools to build and threats to meet and alliances to repair.

The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. We may not get there in one year or even one term, but America - I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there. I promise you - we as a people will get there.

There will be setbacks and false starts. There are many who won't agree with every decision or policy I make as President, and we know that government can't solve every problem. But I will always be honest with you about the challenges we face. I will listen to you, especially when we disagree. And above all, I will ask you join in the work of remaking this nation the only way it's been done in America for two-hundred and twenty-one years - block by block, brick by brick, calloused hand by calloused hand.

What began twenty-one months ago in the depths of winter must not end on this autumn night. This victory alone is not the change we seek - it is only the chance for us to make that change. And that cannot happen if we go back to the way things were. It cannot happen without you.

So let us summon a new spirit of patriotism; of service and responsibility where each of us resolves to pitch in and work harder and look after not only ourselves, but each other. Let us remember that if this financial crisis taught us anything, it's that we cannot have a thriving Wall Street while Main Street suffers - in this country, we rise or fall as one nation; as one people.

Let us resist the temptation to fall back on the same partisanship and pettiness and immaturity that has poisoned our politics for so long. Let us remember that it was a man from this state who first carried the banner of the Republican Party to the White House - a party founded on the values of self-reliance, individual liberty, and national unity. Those are values we all share, and while the Democratic Party has won a great victory tonight, we do so with a measure of humility and determination to heal the divides that have held back our progress. As Lincoln said to a nation far more divided than ours, "We are not enemies, but friends...though passion may have strained it must not break our bonds of affection." And to those Americans whose support I have yet to earn - I may not have won your vote, but I hear your voices, I need your help, and I will be your President too.

And to all those watching tonight from beyond our shores, from parliaments and palaces to those who are huddled around radios in the forgotten corners of our world - our stories are singular, but our destiny is shared, and a new dawn of American leadership is at hand. To those who would tear this world down - we will defeat you. To those who seek peace and security - we support you. And to all those who have wondered if America's beacon still burns as bright - tonight we proved once more that the true strength of our nation comes not from our the might of our arms or the scale of our wealth, but from the enduring power of our ideals: democracy, liberty, opportunity, and unyielding hope.

For that is the true genius of America - that America can change. Our union can be perfected. And what we have already achieved gives us hope for what we can and must achieve tomorrow.

This election had many firsts and many stories that will be told for generations. But one that's on my mind tonight is about a woman who cast her ballot in Atlanta. She's a lot like the millions of others who stood in line to make their voice heard in this election except for one thing - Ann Nixon Cooper is 106 years old.

She was born just a generation past slavery; a time when there were no cars on the road or planes in the sky; when someone like her couldn't vote for two reasons - because she was a woman and because of the color of her skin.

And tonight, I think about all that she's seen throughout her century in America - the heartache and the hope; the struggle and the progress; the times we were told that we can't, and the people who pressed on with that American creed: Yes we can.

At a time when women's voices were silenced and their hopes dismissed, she lived to see them stand up and speak out and reach for the ballot. Yes we can.

When there was despair in the dust bowl and depression across the land, she saw a nation conquer fear itself with a New Deal, new jobs and a new sense of common purpose. Yes we can.

When the bombs fell on our harbor and tyranny threatened the world, she was there to witness a generation rise to greatness and a democracy was saved. Yes we can.

She was there for the buses in Montgomery, the hoses in Birmingham, a bridge in Selma, and a preacher from Atlanta who told a people that "We Shall Overcome." Yes we can.

A man touched down on the moon, a wall came down in Berlin, a world was connected by our own science and imagination. And this year, in this election, she touched her finger to a screen, and cast her vote, because after 106 years in America, through the best of times and the darkest of hours, she knows how America can change. Yes we can.

America, we have come so far. We have seen so much. But there is so much more to do. So tonight, let us ask ourselves - if our children should live to see the next century; if my daughters should be so lucky to live as long as Ann Nixon Cooper, what change will they see? What progress will we have made?

This is our chance to answer that call. This is our moment. This is our time - to put our people back to work and open doors of opportunity for our kids; to restore prosperity and promote the cause of peace; to reclaim the American Dream and reaffirm that fundamental truth - that out of many, we are one; that while we breathe, we hope, and where we are met with cynicism, and doubt, and those who tell us that we can't, we will respond with that timeless creed that sums up the spirit of a people:

Yes We Can. Thank you, God bless you, and may God Bless the United States of America.

PS: HURRAY! God Bless to the new hope, for the new change. xoxo

I was suppose to post an entry about a certain emotion(s) that I want to share. I may be right about it but sometimes I feel that my topics & my thoughts are not that important. It doesn't make it sense at all. It's like a boring discussion. But I really don't care. I am person who knows how to write real & true emotions. I love writing about everything. I don't care how boring, stupid, annoying or sad it is. I want to share thoughts & memories.

To start with. This entry won't be interesting if I will not start talking about LOVE. Oh Love! The word sounds so simple yet everybody goes crazy about it in a lot of ways. Some may be consciously denying when they fall in love & others are just so vocal & low key. Humans are super naturally unpredictable. Most of the time we know the right thing to do but we just step backward because of what ifs & negative thoughts. We let fears conquer us. Its okay to be scared. We don't have to pretend that we are strong even if we are too weak to accept pain. I have few friends who ask advices & help about their relationships. I'm a person who has a lot experience about relationship. I had only 3 or 4 relationships. I don't even know why it ended. Seriously, I just know how to think if I'm not involve. I'm much better understanding others problems than understanding mine. It's true. Don't have to deny it or anything. Helping my friends & being a person who listens to them really helps me to be mature. Why? Because in that way my brain is actually working in progress & I can use those advices & thoughts if the same thing will happen to me. The EARTH is round! It is revolving. Destiny may give us different ways to discover life but in the end we all find happiness & peace. Love will always be there. Love made the world. WE are all made by Love. Life is too short to waste. The world is really going to tough time right now. I'm a part of this world & I'm getting tired seeing a lot of bad happenings. I really appreciate people who are trying to help save the world & make it a good place for the children. Celebrities & ordinary people who has good hearts & intentions, they are new heroes. If only all us knows how to appreciate & share Love, I don't think that we will have this kind of atmosphere. We can still hope but most of the time we just ignore it because hope is useless. Everybody wants to number one & most of us are so greedy. What's with power? Yes, it may give us a lot of authority & money? Does it really give us clean conscience or peace in our minds & hearts? It may sound OA or whatever. But it is true. The Government or even Royalties are heedless. Not in general but most of authorities are like that. Well, enough about politics. I'm not that interested about their world. Be just!

So let's talk about what's going on with my world. haha! After all this my blog! Right? Well, work is doing fine. I'm not that into my work. I'm happy with the pay but I think I'm done with this kind of job. I'm looking for something new & right job. They would tell me that I have to start from the buttom before I reach the top. We all goes through that kind of process. We just have to work hard. I undestand that. But if you start hating the job & the people that you're working for, then the best option is to leave. I've been in the company over a year now & I love being with my team mates. Its fun! Its just that! Nevermind. I know I can handle it. Right now, I'm at home & feeling so sick. Well, I am sick. Had fever & having colds & cough now. I just want to rest, sleep, stay at home & spend time with my son. My son is amazing! He is the sweetest! He is just so like me! haha! I'm his MOM! Not to mention, I'm single mom. By choice. I'm loving it though sometimes I admit that its really hard to understand the kind of behavoir your child has. You really have to be more patient zillion times. I am patient but I'm not sure if I'm doing good at it. All I know is I want to be with my son mostly everyday of his life. I want to see him laugh, sing, dance, laugh, cry. I want to see him grow & be his friend. I so love him. His been a blessing. His teaching me a lot of things. Even if I'm not a good in some ways, I know my son will make me a better mother. I can spend the rest of my life with my little boy. He is more than everything to me. *wink

DREAMS! This word is so positive. Its good to hear someone sharing their dreams. My dreams started when I knew I can dream. I just want a simple life. I want to finish school, get a good job, be professional, be a wife & a mother. Well, I think 3 of them already did came true. I finished school when I was 21 & I'm a professional. I guess. I am a PROUD & freak Mother. haha! Good job? Not yet. DREAM Job! What's my dream job? LOT of them. I was so young when I realized that I want to sing, dance & to be a writer. Singing motivates me. Dancing gives me spirit. Writing for me is sharing. Simple things. Just simple things. But its so hard to reach. Every time I take one step to my dream, I want to take two steps backward because I know I don't deserve to reach my dreams. Its too good to be true they say. Dreams must remain dreams for me. I'm a coward. Yes. I'm not embarrass with my dreams its just that its impossible to get it. So impossible. But I can still do those in my own ways. At least. haha!

Anyway, I'm lost now. TWIST! I will just give you updates regarding about my faves. Let's start with Britney. She's still great, beautiful & dork. haha! I love her. She's wonderful. Her new album Circus will be out on 12.02.08. So excited for it! Jamie Lynn is happy. Not pregnant. Backstreet Boys will be performing in TRL on 11/16/08 if I'm not mistaken. Everybody should say good bye to TRL. *tears. High School Musical 3: Senior Year is still the #1 Movie worldwide. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! I'm in love with the production, casts & everything about High School Musical. I am a Fan! Zac & Vanessa are still in love. Love 'em! Hmmm...? Who else? Chris Tiu? haha! My friends will tell me I'm crazy! As far as I know, he just came from China then his nominated for Favorite Athlete for Nickelodeon's Kids' Choice Awards 2008. Cool. Something new. *wink

TO WRAP EVERYTHING, I'm just so inspired with my life. AND so excited to fall in love! No one can't take what's left of me. *smile

God Bless everyone!

xoxo


Hey! I'm late again. Sorry. I'm at home and sick. I missed another Survivor episode but I finally got the chance to watch High School Music 3: Senior Year. BIG SCREEN! I SO LOVE IT! The production, choreography and crew/casts are amazing! The film is so beautiful. I have the OST in my cellphone. *wink! Anyway, here's the recap for the last episode on Survivor. I can't upload the photos but you can visit the site: http://www.cbs.com/primetime/survivor/

NEW DAY, NEW TARGET

As the morning sun rises, the Fang Tribe find themselves rummaging through the remains of their rice. Ace determines that they only have a mere thirty handfuls left, and the tribe scrapes a few grains from the bottom of their pot. Suddenly, Crystal accidentally knocks over the stash of rice, spilling a significant portion into the dirt. Matty vents, "Rice is more valuable than gold, and she just clumsily trips over it and spills it. I wanted to just lay into her and chew her out, but it's just pointless. You can’t cry over spilled milk, you know, it’s just too late." Tensions rise between Crystal and the rest of the tribe when she refuses to eat the rice. "I don’t want to feel like I took away from anybody in this tribe, so by all means, eat your food like you normally do," Crystal pouts. Matty and Ace become agitated by Crystal’s attitude, which places the target on her. Ace reveals, “Crystal did me a favor and she will be the next lamb to the slaughter."

ON THE OUTS
At Kota, Dan’s insecurities come out when he desperately tries to align with Corinne, Charlie and Marcus, whom he sees as an exclusive alliance. Feeling on the outside, Dan pushes himself even further away from them by trying too hard to proclaim his devotion to their alliance. He claims to have alienated himself while on the Fang Tribe in order to prove he has no attachments outside of the Kota Tribe. Marcus reads into this, and sees Dan as a threat: “Dan is the ultimate paranoid human being. Like at some point, Dan is going to be a huge liability and unfortunately, there’s nothing I can do to sort of save him from himself at this point.”

REWARD CHALLENGE: ELEPHANT EGGS
Both tribes arrive on their colored mats as host Jeff Probst explains the rules. Three members of each tribe will toss a breakable ball back and forth while one member from the other tribe attempts to smash that ball or force it to the ground. Both tribes will compete at the same time, in two separate rings. The tribe whose attacker breaks the opponent’s ball first wins a point. The first tribe to accrue three points wins a helicopter ride to a beautiful location in Gabon where they will also enjoy a picnic lunch including a selection of meats, cheeses, drinks, and breads. In addition, the winning tribe will send one member of the losing tribe to Exile Island. Since Kota has two extra members, Corinne and Charlie sit out of the challenge.

In the first round, Randy is the attacker for Kota in the Fang ring, with Ace the attacker for Fang in the Kota ring. The tribes begin tossing their balls in a game of keep away while Randy attempts to destroy Fang’s ball by forcing it to the ground. In the Kota ring, Ace goes from person to person attempting to smash Kota’s ball or force it to the ground. Randy tackles Ken just as he passes to Crystal, but it falls short and breaks on the ground. Kota scores their first point. In the next round, Bob is the attacker for Kota, and Sugar is the attacker for Fang. Randy taunts Sugar by growling at her. Bob is very aggressive as he tackles each Fang player. Sugar makes no offensive maneuvers, allowing Kota to slip balls right past her. Bob causes an error by Fang when he tackles Ace mid-throw. The ball breaks on the ground, and Kota scores their second point, leading two to zero. In the next round, Dan is the attacker for Kota and Matty is the attacker for Fang. Matty comes on strong as soon as the round begins, attempting to tackle each Kota player to the ground. In the Fang ring, Dan tackles Ace as he throws the ball to Sugar. Sugar misses and the ball breaks, scoring the third point for Kota. With three points, Kota wins the challenge, and decide to send Sugar, once again, to Exile Island. Kota is then off to enjoy their reward in the helicopter as Fang slumps back to camp.

CLIFF REWARD
The Kota Tribe takes in the gorgeous view from the helicopter as they fly over Gabon. They land on the edge of a cliff that opens to a deep canyon spanning several miles. Everyone marvels at the view as they lay out their picnic basket contents. Susie reflects, "The beautiful scenery…it was awesome. It's something I thought I would never experience. So it just gives you more incentive, more power, more strength and you know that you can get through this no matter what. It was very surreal for me. It was just amazing."

A TRIBE IN SHAMBLES
Back at the Fang camp, Matty rants to the tribe about Sugar's poor performance at the challenge. On a private canoe ride, Matty tries to convince Ace to take out Sugar, thereby flushing out the idol and strengthening the tribe all at once. Ace defends Sugar, claiming that they can use Sugar and her idol to their advantage whenever they wish. Ace then suggests voting out Crystal. Back on shore, Ken and Crystal speculate that Ace and Matty are conspiring to take out Crystal, which angers her. Ken suggests blindsiding Ace, and tells her that he will talk to Sugar about it. Crystal expresses her resentment towards Ace: "The way that he is manipulating Matty…he’s the devil and he has to go."

LETTERS FROM HOME
Heartily enjoying their picnic at the cliff, Kota happily chatters about the sad state of the Fang tribe. Stunned silence falls over them when a Gabon native approaches them with letters from home. Everyone erupts with joy as the letters are handed out and read. Bob excuses himself from the group and wanders off on his own. He immediately breaks down bawling as he reads his family’s letters. Corinne approaches him and embraces him. “Your family loves you, Bob,” she says. Charlie and the other tribe members cry as they talk about their families. Bob opens up, “I’m close to these people here, but these are the people that are the closest to my heart. Life is good, and I realize how lucky a man I am. I’m here, and I can’t wait to get home to them. Life doesn’t get better than this.”

BACK TO THE SUGAR SHACK
Sugar returns to the gazebo on Exile Island where she indulges once again in comfort. As she rests on the hammock, she reflects on her state in the game. “Thank God for Ace. What’s funny is I’m pretty sure we’re using each other, but I feel like my tribe thinks I’m naïve and that I am sticking with him out of stupidity. I’m sticking with him because he is the strongest player at this point. So, I just hope that they’re not all screwing me around.”

IMMUNITY CHALLENGE: LAKE LOG JAM
Kota and Fang arrive at their respective mats as Sugar returns from Exile Island and rejoins the Fang Tribe. In a shocking twist, host Jeff Probst reveals that both tribes will be going to Tribal Council and voting someone out of the game. Each tribe will be competing to win individual immunity. They will compete in a log roll and will be paired up against another tribe member from either tribe. The objective is to stay on the log longer than the other person. The first person to hit the water is out. Winners move on to the next round. The last person left standing wins individual immunity. In addition, there is a twist that will be revealed at the end of the challenge.

The first match-up is Dan versus Ace. The two tip-toe across the rolling log and attempt to keep their balance. Dan is in the water first and Ace moves on to the next round. The next match-up is Charlie versus Crystal. Crystal is in the water first and Charlie moves on to the next round. When Marcus takes on Matty, Matty is in the water first, sending Marcus to the next round. Susie is in the water first when she takes on Randy, and he moves on to the next round. Sugar defeats Ken, and she moves on. When Bob faces off against Corinne, he reveals that he is a former log roll champion. Bob shows off a little before easily defeating Corinne. In round two, Charlie takes on Ace and the two fight to keep their balance. Charlie is in the water first and Ace moves on to the final round. When Randy competes against Marcus, Randy falls in the water first and Marcus moves on to the final round. Sugar defeats Bob and she moves on to the final round. For the final round, Ace, Sugar and Marcus are all on the log at the same time. Sugar falls off first, leaving Ace and Marcus fighting to win immunity. Ace and Marcus battle it out, and, after maintaining good balance for a while, Ace falls in the water first. Marcus wins individual immunity and Jeff Probst reveals the twist: Marcus must assign individual immunity to a member of the opposing tribe. Marcus strategically chooses Sugar, in the hopes that the Fang Tribe will be forced to vote out a power player.

A SHIFT IN POWER
With Tribal Council looming, Ken attempts to convince Sugar to blindside Ace, her greatest ally in the game. Ken rats Ace out, telling Sugar that Ace plans on using her to gain possession of the idol and ultimately vote her out. Sugar realizes that she is being played by Ace, and backs Ken’s plan to take him out. Ken reassures Crystal that Sugar is with them and will vote out Ace. Crystal questions Sugar’s allegiance, and says that she will believe it when she sees Sugar’s vote at Tribal Council. Ace meets up with Sugar by the lake and asks for her immunity idol in case someone tries to pull a double-cross. Sugar tells Ace that is not happening, and causes her to question his motives. “When Ace asked me for the idol, it made me think maybe Kenny was telling me the truth,” Sugar reveals.

TRIBAL COUNCIL
At Fang’s sixth Tribal Council, Matty attacks Crystal for spilling the rice. Ace backs Matty as Crystal erupts, shouting that she resents her tribe members for not saving any rice for her to eat, even though she repeatedly refused it when her tribe offered some to her. In the midst of the unfolding drama, Sugar criticizes her tribe for fighting about such petty nonsense. In the end, Sugar decided to keep the immunity necklace for herself and blindsided Ace, who was voted out of the game with three out of the five votes cast against him. Ace Gordon, the 27 year-old fashion photographer from Naples, Florida, became the seventh person voted out of SURVIVOR: GABON: EARTH’S LAST EDEN.

KOTA SCRAMBLES BEFORE TRIBAL COUNCIL
Dan desperately tries to keep himself in the game by sticking with the original Kota members as they discuss who to vote out next. Randy suggests convincing Bob that he is still a part of the Kota four. Marcus reveals that, in reality, Randy has replaced Bob in a final four situation as long as he keeps his part of the bargain. As the discussion continues, Susie and Dan are put on the chopping block, with the majority of the tribe leaning towards Dan. “Dan is super vulnerable tonight, and the only thing Dan has going for him right now is that he should really cross his fingers and hope that Susie is going to blow up and do some crazy stuff,” says Charlie. Meanwhile, as Corinne has a chat with Susie, she ends up digging her own grave by admitting that she originally planned on voting out Corinne. Corinne is floored by this, and immediately brings this information to the rest of her tribe in an attempt to sway them to vote out Susie instead of Dan. Randy brings up that fact that Susie’s vote can be bought, which makes her a dangerous player. Marcus decides to play it safe by splitting the votes between Susie and Dan in the unlikely event that Dan may be in possession of the immunity idol from the one time that he was sent to Exile Island.

TRIBAL COUNCIL
At Tribal Council, Susie pointed the finger at Corinne for being physically weaker than her, which made Corinne even more aware that Susie is against her. Dan admitted to being a worrier and not knowing what is going on in the game. In the end, Kota stuck to their original plan of splitting the votes between Dan and Susie and, with four of the seven votes cast against him, Dan was voted out of the game. Dan Kay, the 32 year-old attorney from Boston, Massachusetts became the eighth person voted out of SURVIVOR: GABON: EARTH’S LAST EDEN.


Happy Monday everyone! Finally! I got the chance to sit in the computer. Tired with work & busy with time. WHAT?! Anyway, I missed Survivor last Friday because I needed to get enough sleep. But I know I would know what happend in the last episode. Here are some clips & recaps for the last episode.

A DEAL WITH THE DEVIL
The Fang Tribe return from Tribal Council after GC was voted out of the game. As the rest of Fang enjoy the fire that Matty has just ignited, Ace contemplates who he will lure into his alliance that will keep him safe until the merge: "I just don't know who will be my potential Benedict Arnold."

The next morning, Matty confesses that every night he dreams about food, his dog and his girlfriend, Jamie. To remind himself of Jamie, his driving force in the game, Matty carves a ring for her. Because of her, he is determined to finish out the game until the end: "If somebody approached me with a legitimate, logical, reasonable plan that might work, for sure I'm on board man. I'm jumping on board and I am flying with it." Matty then meets Ace away from camp in secret and the two make a pact that, until the merge, they will stick together and not betray each other or their alliance. Matty brings Ken into the alliance and Ace brings Sugar. Ace swears on his mother's life while Matty swears on his girlfriend, and a deal is struck. Matty expresses his dedication to his new pact with Ace: "I'm not gonna break that promise for a million dollars…not for five million dollars."

GLUTANY AT KOTA
At Kota, everyone eats their equal portion of rice, corn and beans as they watch Dan shovel down fourth and fifth servings. Dan continues to help himself as he piles rice, corn and beans onto a large leaf of lettuce and gobbles it down. Corinne expresses her frustration with Dan: "So now we are going through food at an alarming rate and he takes multiple servings. I am sick about how much food is being wasted on him."

A SHIFT IN POWER
Meanwhile, the Fang Tribe continues to struggle with rationing out their rice so they will have enough until the merge. Ken feels that the tribe wasted a lot of rice by either eating too much of it in the beginning or throwing unused portions away. "We have about six days worth. If we don't have rice, we're dead. Basically, we're gone. It's hard for our tribe right now. It's like we're at rock bottom," says Ken.

Ace approaches Sugar in the hut and warns her that he is almost certain that everyone knows she is in possession of the immunity idol. Sugar then offers to give the idol to Ace for safe keeping. Ace accepts her offer, and is given the immunity idol. Sugar admits that she is aware that Ace is untrustworthy: "Ace is kind of a snake, but he's my snake, and I'm glad to have him." Ace, on the other hand, is ecstatic about his new power position in the game: "It's been a crazy couple of days. It went from me being in a position of no power to a position of supremacy, having the immunity idol in my pocket. I have Matty's word. I have Sugar. I feel like I put myself in a very good position coming from a tribe that I didn't have any alliance with."

REWARD CHALLENGE: SNAKE IN THE GRASS
Kota and Fang arrive on their mats, awaiting their next reward challenge. Host Jeff Probst explains the rules. Each tribe will be tethered to a twenty foot long, two hundred pound snake. Tribes will start on opposite sides of the course. When Jeff yells, "Go!" the tribes will race around the course attempting to catch the other tribe. If, along the way, someone gets tired, they can opt out of the challenge by disconnecting from the snake. Each person who opts out leaves their portion of the 200 pound snake in the hands of their remaining tribe members. The first tribe to catch the other tribe and touch one tribe member wins pastries, croissants, fruit tarts, chocolate éclairs, coffee and tea. In addition, the winning tribe will send one member of the losing tribe to Exile Island. Because Kota has one extra member, Corinne is chosen to sit out of the challenge.




Jeff yells, "Go!" and the two tribes are off. Fang gets an early lead at the start. Kelly, at the front of the Fang snake, begins to slow down, allowing Kota to gain on them. Ace and Matty tell Sugar and Ken to go, and they both drop out. Susie drops out of Kota, and her departure seems to give them even more steam as they continue to gain on Fang. Kelly is the next to drop out of Fang and, down to only three members, they gain distance on Kota. Crystal, at the rear of Fang, suddenly slows down and Matty yells at her to drop out. Ace yells to Matty that he cannot take all of the extra weight with only the two of them, but Matty insists they need to keep at it. Kota, with five strong men, closes in on Fang. Matty and Ace nearly tire out as Marcus tags Matty, winning the challenge for Kota. With Crystal crying and the rest of Fang defeated, Jeff Probst hands over a tray of pastries to Kota, who proceed to devour them in front of starving Fang members. Crystal breaks down and says that she is tired of losing. Kota chooses Sugar for the fourth time in a row to go to Exile Island.

RATIONING LAWS
The Kota Tribe returns to their camp after winning an assortment of pastries. Marcus begins delegating how they should distribute fair, equal portions to everyone. Dan agrees with Charlie's suggestion that each tribe member should get their own portion so that he or she could eat as much of that portion as they want on their own terms. Corinne snaps that Dan is the sole reason for the tribe having to ration a reward like this in the first place. Randy catches on to this and decides to slowly distance himself from Dan as he brings himself closer to the original Kota.

THE SUGAR SHACK
Sugar is once again back in the gazebo of comfort on Exile Island. Although she is thankful for being there rather than at her camp where food is nearly non-existent, she feels bad for her other starving tribe members. She cries, "Why do I get to come back here and eat fruit when everybody is starving at my tribe and they're running out of food and they don't have anything but rice and I'm feeling really guilty." Sugar also reflects on giving Ace the idol, and wonders if he will need to use it if Fang has to go to Tribal Council.

PARANOIA SETS IN
After losing the reward challenge, Fang falls apart even further when Crystal becomes paranoid. "Don't view my tears at today's challenge as a sign of weakness," she tells Matty. Ace and Kelly walk off alone and talk about how Crystal's tears brought the whole tribe's morale to a new low. Crystal becomes aware that Kelly has not talked to her since the challenge, and decides to confront Kelly and Ace in the woods. Crystal tells Kelly, "At some point, we all get depressed. It's just that mine come out through my eyes." Kelly doesn't quite buy Crystal's defense, claiming "I definitely think that Crystal crying in front of the Kota Tribe and our tribe shows a sign of weakness. Like, you could take it either which way, you know. Like, she can explain it to us, but she can't explain it to the Kota Tribe."

TURTLE SOUP
Back at Kota, Marcus, Randy and Bob catch a large turtle in the lake and decide to cook it. With morale higher than ever, the Kota Tribe enjoys eating turtle soup. Marcus remarks on the state of the tribe: "Right now, the Kota Tribe is probably at our highest high and the fact that we caught a turtle just knocked us up ten notches, so Fang better watch out."

IMMUNITY CHALLENGE: JUNGLE RELAY
The Kota and Fang Tribes arrive on their mats. Sugar returns from Exile Island and rejoins the Fang Tribe. Jeff Probst explains the rules for the immunity challenge. Each tribe will divide into three pairs. Each pair will be tethered together by a rope. The first pair will crawl under a cargo net and race into the jungle, navigate an obstacle, and retrieve two sections of a flagpole, then race back to their mat. The next pair will then tackle the course. Each leg of the challenge adds another obstacle, making it more difficult. The first tribe to collect all three pairs of flagpole pieces and assemble the flagpole correctly wins immunity. Since Kota has one extra member, Susie sits out of the challenge.



Sugar and Kelly are up first for Fang, while Bob and Randy are up for Kota. Sugar and Kelly quickly make their way underneath the cargo net while Randy drags behind for Kota. At the first flagpole station, Sugar and Bob race to untie the knots to retrieve the first set of flagpole pieces. Bob does it first with Sugar right behind, and both pairs race back underneath the net. Bob and Randy make it first, and the next pair for Kota, Corinne and Charlie, are off. Sugar and Kelly get stuck underneath the cargo net, greatly slowing things down for Fang. They finally make it back to their tribe, and Ace and Crystal take to the course for Fang. They race through the second obstacle, which is made up of a tall bunch of numerous pipes, and catch up to Corinne and Charlie, who are already working the knots for the second set of flagpole pieces. Corinne and Charlie untie the knots first, and race back with the second set of flagpole pieces for Kota. Ace and Crystal make up a lot of time and gain on Kota as they make their way back to their tribes with the second set of flagpole pieces. Dan and Marcus are off for Kota competing against Matty and Ken for Fang. Matty and Ken throw themselves through the cargo net and dash to the final obstacle. As Dan and Marcus struggle through the final obstacle, Matty and Ken pass Kota by climbing up over the top of the obstacle. With Fang now in the lead, Matty and Ken race to untie the knots and make their way back. Kota is right behind as they use Fang's strategy of going on top of the obstacle. Both tribes are neck and neck as they make their way through the cargo net and deliver the final flagpole pieces to their tribes. As both tribes race to assemble the flagpole, Kota works together while Ace insists on doing it himself. He refuses help from anyone as he tries to force the pieces in. Kota quickly assembles and raises their flagpole, winning immunity and sending Fang to their fifth Tribal Council.


WHO'S PLAYING WHO?
Fang returns from another immunity challenge loss and Ace is convinced that Kelly should be the next to go. Matty confronts him in the jungle and proposes flushing out the idol by voting off Sugar. Ace rejects Matty's plea, and assures him not to worry about the idol being played. "Although I don't want to tell him I have the idol, obviously I do," Ace explains. The two decide on voting out Kelly. Crystal and Matty chat by the dock and Crystal suggests blindsiding Sugar tonight. Matty says that they cannot do this because he already ran the idea by Ace and he is against it. Crystal then becomes agitated and wants Ace gone. Matty defends Ace by stating he is good to have for winning challenges, but Crystal does not buy it. "I don't know what's going through Matty's head. He's running and telling Ace everything and Ace ain't running and telling him anything," she says. Crystal brings this information to Ken, who becomes paranoid that Matty might flip on their alliance and go with Ace. Ken confronts Matty, and warns him that Ace is untrustworthy. Matty confesses that he made a serious pact with Ace and that they each swore on their loved ones that one will not turn against the other. With things not looking too good, Ken turns to his only hope: Sugar. To his surprise, Sugar admits to Ken that she gave the immunity idol to Ace. Ken warns Sugar that Ace is a snake and is manipulating her to do whatever he wants. After this conversation, Sugar decides to get the idol back from Ace. She lets Ace know that she took it back just in case she needs to use it, and does not want him to think that someone else may have stolen it. Ace remains confident that he is safe despite Sugar's decision to reclaim the idol.

TRIBAL COUNCIL
At Tribal Council, Crystal calls out Ace for working alone on assembling the flagpole at the immunity challenge. Ace admits that he could have worked better as a team, and shoulders the blame for the loss. Crystal attacks Kelly for saying that her tears at the immunity challenge showed that she is weak. Crystal shouts, "It gets frustrating Kelly, it really does. We've been down and out since day one, but you wouldn't understand it because you came from a winning situation!" Kelly then attacks Ace for agreeing with Crystal, and soon he is yelling back at Kelly. In the end, Fang passed up the opportunity to blindside Sugar and flush out the immunity idol, opting instead to get rid of Kelly. With five out of the six votes cast against her, Kelly Czarnecki, the 22 year-old student from Buffalo Grove, Illinois,
became the sixth person voted out of SURVIVOR: GABON: EARTH'S LAST EDEN.

KOTA ARE THE UNBEATABLE! Love 'em!

Blessed Sunday everyone! Just came home from work. Got off at 5am & directly went home because I miss my son. But he is already asleep when I arrived. Anyway, I'm posting updates about the last episode of Survivor Gabon because AGAIN my KOTA tribe won Immunity! Here's the updates...

A NEW THREAT ARRIVES
The new Fang Tribe returns to camp after their previous Tribal Council, where Jacquie was voted out. Ace admits that he is at a loss without Jacquie, and feels vulnerable. Knowing that Sugar will soon be joining his tribe, Ace lays out his new plan: "One of Sugar's biggest plusses is the fact that she has the immunity idol tucked up her sleeve, and I've got Sugar in my pocket." Sugar arrives at her new camp and is shocked to find out that Jacquie was voted out instead of Kelly: "My very first thought when I saw that it was the new Fang Tribe was, 'Yeah! I get to see Jacquie and Ace.' But instead, I saw Kelly, and that was a big surprise." Matty and the rest of the original Fang members begin interrogating Sugar about Exile Island. Sugar assures them that it was too difficult for her to find the hidden immunity idol and that she has been choosing comfort every time, naming the gazebo with the food and blankets, "The Sugar Shack." Crystal does not buy this at all and becomes suspicious: "Sugar, Sugar, Sugar. She's been out to Exile Island the longest. She's had plenty of time to look for the idol and I feel in my heart she has the idol, so I gotta get rid of her."

A SHOCKING SURPRISE
The next morning at Kota, Bob and Marcus catch four large tilapia and bring them back to camp. Everyone cheers as they dump the fish out in front of the tribe. A small fish about four inches long is laid out on a table. Bob touches it and it gives him a jolt. Marcus tries to pick it up and it gives him an electric shock as well. Everyone seems to be in good spirits around camp as they feast their eyes on the catch of the day. Randy, an ex-Fang member, is awed by Kota's resources compared to the conditions at Fang, where food was scarce and fish where almost non-existent. Although life is great at Kota, Randy still has some concerns: "If they had to vote somebody out right now, they'd vote the old Fang people out, but I'll work on them. When they say to adapt, they mean to adapt and this crusty old man can do it."

WILDLIFE VISITS FANG
At Fang, Matty hears a noise and descends into the jungle to see what it is. To his surprise, he discovers an elephant staring back at him just across the lake. Matty leaps back to camp and tells the others to check it out. The Fang Tribe quietly follow him into the jungle and onto a bank in front of the lake. The tribe is in awe of what lies in front of them: a large African elephant, which begins ripping away at tree branches. They sit and watch in utter shock as the elephant tears down a tree. Ace and Matty decide to take the canoe out across the lake to get a close-up view of the action as the rest of their tribe watches from a distance. As their canoe approaches the opposite back, the elephant begins trumpeting and violently tears away at the surrounding foliage. Matty reflects on the experience: "Seeing that elephant today really made me step out of the game for a second. It just makes you appreciate the simplicity of life and the pure things, and it makes you appreciate Gabon."

REWARD CHALLENGE: FRUIT FLIES
Kota and Fang arrive at their colored mats as host Jeff Probst reveals that Fang voted Jacquie out at the last Tribal Council. Jacquie's original alliance of Marcus, Charlie and Corinne are visibly shocked at the news, but Marcus asks them not to worry and to focus on the challenge. Jeff Probst explains the rules. Each tribe will start with a large pile of fruit. When Jeff says, "Go!" tribe members will toss the fruit to their tribemates through holes in two net walls while members of the opposite tribe use wooden clubs and attempt to whack that fruit out of the air. Once a piece of fruit hits the ground, it cannot be picked up. The fruit will be weighed at the end of the challenge and the tribe that manages to collect the most fruit at the end of five minutes wins their own herb garden which includes salt, oil and chili sauce. In addition, whatever fruit the tribes catch is theirs to keep.




On defense and wielding the club for Fang is Crystal at the front net, and Ace at the back net. For Kota, Bob is at the front net, and Charlie is at the back net. Jeff yells, "Go!" and the fruit tossing begins. Kota scores the first point right off the bat. GC tries to toss fruit through the front net, but is constantly blocked by Bob. After numerous tries, he finally gets a piece of fruit through the front net past Bob to Matty, who tosses the fruit through the second net to Ken, who catches it, scoring the first point for Fang. Kota struggles to get past Ace after numerous pieces of fruit are blocked by him. Fang maintains their lead as Ace continues to block Kota's fruit and Ken continues to score. Realizing that they're falling behind, Kota changes their strategy and Dan begins to throw two pieces at once. The strategy proves to be a success as Dan launches fruit through the net and into the waiting arms of Randy. As Fang throws one small piece of fruit at a time, Kota throws two larger pieces simultaneously and scores. Ace gets drenched in pulp as his bat and his nose connect with a watermelon and a pineapple which both fail to make it through the net. Both tribes are neck-and-neck in the final seconds of the challenge, desperately launching as much fruit at the nets as possible. After the challenge is over, Jeff weighs Fang's fruit first, which comes to sixteen pounds. Kota's fruit is then weighed, and is an impressive eighteen pounds. By two pounds, Kota wins reward, and sends Sugar to Exile Island.

THE EVIL EMPIRE
Kota returns to camp ecstatic over their latest victory. With the addition of their own herb garden, Charlie realizes that they are way ahead of Fang in terms of food supply and quality. Dan huddles the group together and pledges his undying devotion to his new tribe. He attempts to convince the original Kota members to vote unanimously even after the merge, and coins their tribe, "The Evil Empire" to inspire confidence and unity. Marcus sees right through Dan, as he insists that all seven Kota members must stick together no matter what. Marcus is also concerned about Susie's loyalty, as she is too quiet around camp. "I don't have the confidence that we get to the merge and these people have my back," he says. Randy, on the other hand, is taking a more subtle approach to schmoozing his new tribemates. He reveals, "My plans right now is just to continue to win challenges and not rock the boat, and I will be Kota yellow 'til the end."

THE SUGAR SHACK
When Sugar arrives on Exile Island, she dances instantly to the gazebo and proceeds to eat every piece of fruit she lays her eyes on. "Everybody else in the game is tired and starving and stinky and dirty and I am living high on the hog in Eden all by myself with my own lake and fruit and comfort and I'm a very happy camper now. I have the idol, and I'd have to be really dumb to get sent home next, so I am definitely happy…and fat."

THE HEAT IS ON
Things heat up at Fang when GC comments on the low remaining portions of rice, to which Crystal retorts, "Eat your rice." This sends GC over the edge, and he begins questioning why he is even playing the game: "Not only do you gotta win these challenges to live well out here, you know, you gotta deal with these people day in and day out twenty-four seven. It's hard and I do question, 'What am I doing?'" Ace sees this as a benefit for himself, as he watches his tribe begin to implode.

GC GOES MISSING
Matty reads treemail at Fang, which hints at another immunity challenge. Matty's morale is low as he admits there is no chance of winning with the current state of his divided tribe. GC separates from camp and takes the canoe out as the rest of his tribe gets ready to head out to the immunity challenge. When Matty realizes that GC is missing, Kelly and Ken join him and they yell out for him. Crystal is enraged at this, and reveals that she is sick and tired of GC's tantrums. After yelling his name several times, Fang finally spots GC approaching the shore in the canoe. When Kelly tells him that they would've left for the challenge without him, he replies, "That would have been cool with me."

IMMUNITY CHALLENGE: CLIFF BOWLING
Both tribes arrive at their mats as Sugar returns from Exile Island and rejoins the Fang Tribe. Host Jeff Probst explains the rules. One member from each tribe will throw a ball down a cliff through a series of obstacles while a blindfolded member of the other tribe will use a shield in an attempt to block that ball with the aid of a caller. The objective is to get the ball past the defender and into a goal, scoring points for your tribe. The goals represent different point values with five being the highest. The tribe with the most points at the end of five rounds wins immunity.







The defender for Fang is Ace and the caller is Sugar. The defender for Kota is Dan and the caller is Randy. Charlie and Matty are the first to throw. Both balls make it past their defenders and make it into a goal with Kota scoring two points, and Fang scoring five. Susie and GC are next up and toss their balls down the cliff. Sugar struggles to communicate with Ace and, as a result, Kota's ball goes right past him. Randy is able to communicate perfectly as Dan blocks Fang's ball. Kota now has four points to Fang's five. Kelly and Marcus are next up and they both launch their balls down the cliff. Both balls roll recklessly down the hill, crossing paths just as they neared Dan and Randy. In the resulting confusion, Dan inadvertently blocks his own tribe's ball and Ace allows his tribe's ball to enter a goal. Fang now leads seven to four. Corinne and Crystal are up and send their balls hurtling at the defenders. Dan stops Fang's ball and Ace lets Kota's ball slip right past him, scoring two points for Kota. Kota now has six points to Fang's seven. Ace complains of a "shield to the face," after Dan's shield briefly struck him. For the final round, Bob and Ken are up. They send their balls rolling down the cliff. Dan immediately blocks Fang's ball after which Randy confuses Ace by yelling "Freeze, Ace, freeze!" Ace stops dead in his tracks, enabling Kota's ball to reach the goal and score two points. Kota wins immunity, sending Fang to their fourth Tribal Council.


THE QUITTER
Fang returns to camp with their morale lower than ever. GC has a chat with Matty and admits defeat. He reveals that he is nearly ready to quit the game and would like to be voted out. Matty brings the news to Crystal, who is outraged. "He wants to go home, then let it be," she snaps. Soon news spreads all over camp that GC is ready to give up, which excites Sugar and Ace. Ace asks Sugar where her idol is because, at some point, he might need access to it. Sugar reveals to Ace that the idol is in her bag. Meanwhile, back at the tribe's hut, Matty tells Crystal that Sugar is a threat if she has the immunity idol. Crystal decides to go through Sugar's bag and discovers the idol. Kelly and Crystal decide that tonight is the only night to blindside Sugar since everyone thinks that GC is being voted out.

TRIBAL COUNCIL
At Tribal Council, GC admits that he is done suffering, and wants to quit the game. Sugar shows compassion for him when she cries and agrees that it is tough on everyone's psyche to be in this game. When Jeff asks Sugar about the hidden immunity idol, she coyly reveals that nobody ever asked her if she had the idol or not, and is aware that anyone could have gone through her bag to look for it. Crystal gives herself away by telling Sugar that it is crazy for her to leave her bag out in the open where anyone can go through it. Despite Sugar being a major and obvious threat, the tribe came to the consensus that GC should go home, and he was voted out of the game with five out of the six votes cast against him. GC became the fifth person voted out of SURVIVOR: GABON: EARTH'S LAST EDEN.

So I was disappointed because GC quit like that. His not weak in the FANG tribe but I think he loses the hope to help the tribe dig deeper & agree on one thing. They still argue even if new members from KOTA are now with FANG. I think the name FANG is a cursed name! haha! But anyway, I want Randy to be voted out next. I think everyone else in the tribe are helpful. Well, let's see what will happen. I love Sugar! She's smart & funny!

xoxo